Saturday, 31 December 2011


Happy new year all!

2011 was definitely a strange year for me. I'd say it was a good year with a few bad points. But it has definitely had its ups and downs. Perhaps a lot more so than any other recent year.

I'll post some of the paintings that have come from the journey I have made this year over the next few months. It seemed very much in 2011 that I was heading somewhere that I was not familiar with. This also being why I chose the pseudonym 'Lost in Space', because I have definitely been very much lost in space over the last few months.

But there has definitely been some really good moments. In September I started a counselling skills course at my local college, which has been really interesting. I have also met some really nice people there.

And also in November I decided to go vegetarian. That being something I have wanted to do for a while, but unfortunately life got in the way. It was definitely the right time in November.

2011 will also go down as the year when I was finally able to return to better health. Things still aren't perfect, but overall I am coping much  better than what I was this time last year. I know what has been causing all my troubles, and can now work around the symptoms. The lost in space feeling has been a big part of this recovery, and at times has been really scary. I have certainly wanted to go back to where I was, but have kept going through all the challenges to get to a much better place.

I am hoping for a calmer and less confusing 2012, but only time will tell whether this will happen or not. Best wishes to all who read this blog.

Saturday, 17 December 2011

Inner Torment (15/6/2011)

No need to discredit the truth.
Hurt and betrayed by the lies.
Internal rage ever growing.
Do I have no right to my own opinion?
Reality just an annoyance
The people cannot accept,
Their sight blinded by absurdity.
Hatred burns deep,
The inner torment.
But I hold the truth,
Enlightenment is mine.
Never a need to discredit the truth.

Friday, 9 December 2011


Acrylic on canvas, 2010, 8" x 8" (yes the photo is a bit crap, but it does show the main part of the painting).

The feeling that 'me' was being taken over and eaten away by a parasite. The loss of everything that was me. Quite negative, yes, but the feelings were so intense at the time. Thankfully I no longer feel the same.

Saturday, 3 December 2011

Inside My Mind

Acrylic on canvas, 2010, 16" x 20".

Have you ever felt like you are trying to look through all the clutter and confusion, not knowing what is what? That was what inspired this painting.