Friday, 13 July 2012

My first blogging award

Thanking Gary over at Klahanie.

I know it has been a few days since actually receiving the award, but I have had a lot of trouble gathering my thoughts lately (probably resulting from a combination of poor quality sleep and a recent increase in the medication I take for my psychosis and anxiety). But fingers crossed I feel a little better now, so here goes.

Now I don't know of 7 blogs I can pass this award on to, but apparently that is ok. Though I will attempt to come up with 7 interesting facts about myself, just for fun (as these are the things that it is suggested we do when receiving this award).

So 7 (probably not so) interesting things about me are:-

1. I have been painting since 2008, and my paintings have always been expressions of my feelings that I have often struggled to get out in other ways. My early paintings were mostly black and red, to express depression. Maybe one day I will post one so you can see the difference between my earlier paintings and my more recent paintings?

2. Listening to music always makes me feel better. My favourite genre is rock. Music is also a very important coping strategy for me, and also very useful in distracting me enough that I don't respond to the voices.

3. I am currently working on a novel. I don't expect that it will be finished any time soon. I don't want to give away too much too soon, but I will say it will be a horror novel (hopefully, if I write it well enough!).

4. If I could change one thing about me, I would hope to have more confidence in my talent for art. I struggle to see what others see in my paintings, but I wish I could.

5. When I get my health back, I hope to be an art therapist. That way I can use my passion to help others who have been through similar to me.

6. Similarly to my painting, my poetry is mostly a means of self expression. Even if I try to write about something that has nothing to do with me, I still put aspects of how I am feeling or an experience I have had in the poem.

7. This has taken me about half an hour to write this list. It probably would have taken much longer earlier in the week.


  1. Hi! Good for you for finding seven wonderful and interesting things to write about yourself. The first step in acceptance is to know oneself. I enjoyed reading it. Take care and I look forward to seeing you write more.
    Best Always

  2. My friend,
    First of all, I'm encouraged to see that my dear friend Heather, who I know in 3D reality, has left words of support for you.
    As I mentioned to you, there was no obligation to make note of the award if you did not wish to. The thought behind it was to just recognise you and display that the blogging community can all be here for each other.
    What is post positive about this is that you have verbalised about all the resources that help you. Positive distractions in your ongoing journey to have a better life. And through the essence of this therapeutic exercise, I wish you the very best.
    Have a peaceful weekend.
    In kindness, Gary :)

  3. I like how honest you are.

  4. Thank you all for your comments.

    Knowing myself has always been important to me. Through my more difficult times, being able to hang on to my own identity has been a necessary rock for me.

    I intended to focus on the positives, because we all have them. And we are all so much more than the facade we present to society, and definitely a lot more than any of the labels that society place on us. My paintings and poetry being an important part of who I am, but I am also the person behind the art.

    Honesty is always important. If we are not honest with ourselves then how can we even begin to know who we are?

    Thanking you all again. And sending positive wishes in all of your directions.