It has been a while...

I haven't been too creative lately. Yes, what I am posting here is mainly old stuff I have painted or written over the last couple of years. But along with not being too creative, I also haven't been keeping up with posting here. That is just how it goes sometimes.

So how about I say a little about my journey through life so far, seeing as that is the main inspiration behind all of my creative endeavours.

I started writing in 2006. That year I just wrote and wrote and wrote. I'm not saying that any of it was any good at that time. And I unfortunately no longer have anything that I wrote back then, due to a need to relocate quickly to get away from some stuff that was happening (and I do not wish to go into any more detail at this stage). I just upped and ran, leaving everything behind except the bare essentials.

In 2007, I discovered that I could express myself through poetry and wrote quite a lot of poems about various situations I found myself in at the time. I still write poetry to this day, but definitely nowhere near as much as what I did back then.

The painting started in 2008, sort of by accident actually. Again it was mainly a means of expressing myself at a time I could no longer trust anyone. But I enjoyed it and also became good at it (even if I say so myself, but I do believe that I am a good artist). So in time, this became my main means of self expression. I have a number of my paintings up on my walls at home, and they almost always start conversations.

Finally this year I decided that I wanted to try writing a novel. By now I am much more committed to writing than what I was in 2006, and am determined to finish this novel. I have tried many times with many different ways of expressing the things happening to the main character, but in the end settled for the most simple chronological order. I am only still at the beginning of this project, but hopefully it will keep me occupied for some time yet.

I hope this post gives a little bit of background.

Conspiracy (13/6/2011)

I wanted to find the truth,
But instead found hatred and anger -
Knowing they tried to hurt me,
And control me.
But I can't let them win.

I wanted to find the truth,
But instead found absurdity -
Scheming to hinder my recovery,
And lie to me.
But I am the Enlightened One.

The truth is mine for the taking,
I am already there!

Travelling through alternate realities

Acrylic on canvas, 2010, 24" x 18".

Inspired by a holiday in Llandudno, Wales.

The 'alternate realities' are faith, confusion, grandeur, conflict, at the mercy of others, and fantasy.

The butterfly represents travelling through all these feelings, and is not part of the painting. Instead, it was attached after I finished painting.

Sheep (11/9/2011)

No individuality,
Blindly following the Absurdity.
They persecute the enlightened few,
The ones who know the Truth.
They defend their delusion,
Desperate to prove me wrong.
But I stand by the Truth,
The knowledge that led me to Enlightenment.
I'm an individual,
I'm not a sheep.